So, it has been nearly two months since I have posted on here and there has been a lot that has happened while I have been gone. There have been some very exicting and fun things and some disappointing things that have been holding me back and causing me some stress.
Highs
1. We bought our house and have moved in. We are officially homeowner's and we are loving it!
2. We have been spending a lot more time with friends now that we live closer and it makes me so much happier.
3 Both Ron and I now have a commute time of less than 20 minutes (His used to be 1 hour and mine was 45 minutes).
Lows
1. I haven't been to the gym in almost a month.
2. I have been eating out too often and choosing poorly.
3. I feel like I don't know how I got back to this place. How I let myself go so far off track that I am embaressed to even show my face on this blog.
I have spent the better part of the last month trying to figure out why I am not posting and why I don't feel like posting anymore. I tried to convice myself that it was not because I wasn't eating that well and working out. I must just not like it anymore or something. I must be bored with it. Well it is false. I missed the blog, I missed all of you. I miss the support and the accountability. For me this journey is starting again. I didn't gain all the weight back, so that is a plus, but I have a long way to go to get to my goal. I just wanted to let you know that I am back. I don't blame any of you if you don't quite believe me yet and if you want to see some action on my behalf before you come back on board. I am here. I am in a healthy mindframe. I am going to do this and I hope you are here for the ride.
I have the tools and the support and now I just need the action.
1. Weekly weigh-ins in front of a health professional.
2. A personal trainer.
3. My fiance who is going to change his eating habits (he wants to lose 30 pounds) and who has made a training plan that we can do together.
4. A fridge and pantry full of good choices.
5. Wedding gowns taped up around the house (and even in my car to serve as a reminder).
6. I have signed up for two 5k's.
7. The drive, will and desire in my heart to kick this overweight, chubby, fat body to the curb for good!
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Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Friday, March 11, 2011
Mini Goal and My dress vision
Hello! Happy Friday! I hope everyone has a fun weekend planned. I am jet setting to Florida tomorrow, so I will be on a brief hiatus, but I wanted to leave you all with some updates before I leave. When I get back I will have some give-away's and will be back to my regular posting of a few times a week rather than once a week.
So, onto the news in my life... I have worked out every day this week. I haven't done that in a long, long time. I now that it is a small thing to many, but it is such a big thing for me. My motivation was at an all time low. I was feeling totally hopeless about my weight loss situation and for some reason getting back into gear was reallty hard for me. I am proud to say that I have lost 2 pounds this week (since Sunday). I have worked out every day and I have eaten very, very well! I am so excited about getting back on track and moving forward from this stalled point that I was at.
Another update is that after buying around 100 (okay, maybe not THAT many) bridal magazines I have found the style that I like. I will post pictures later for you all to look at. I realized that I am more romantic than I thought I was and tend to gravitate towards A-line or ball gown (not too dramatic, not puffy or ridiculous) style dresses. I also realized that I really like silk organza and tulle when it is used in moderation and in a unique pattern or texture. I also know that I want the dress itself to be free of embellishments and I want to do a really beautiful belt around the waist. I love the dress that Chelsea Clinton wore and am thinking I will get something like that. Check out the picture below courtesy of Jamie Lee Events.
Alright, I am off to Florida. I hope I don't get sun-burnt. I hope that I get to see Minnie! Have a safe, healthy week!
So, onto the news in my life... I have worked out every day this week. I haven't done that in a long, long time. I now that it is a small thing to many, but it is such a big thing for me. My motivation was at an all time low. I was feeling totally hopeless about my weight loss situation and for some reason getting back into gear was reallty hard for me. I am proud to say that I have lost 2 pounds this week (since Sunday). I have worked out every day and I have eaten very, very well! I am so excited about getting back on track and moving forward from this stalled point that I was at.
Another update is that after buying around 100 (okay, maybe not THAT many) bridal magazines I have found the style that I like. I will post pictures later for you all to look at. I realized that I am more romantic than I thought I was and tend to gravitate towards A-line or ball gown (not too dramatic, not puffy or ridiculous) style dresses. I also realized that I really like silk organza and tulle when it is used in moderation and in a unique pattern or texture. I also know that I want the dress itself to be free of embellishments and I want to do a really beautiful belt around the waist. I love the dress that Chelsea Clinton wore and am thinking I will get something like that. Check out the picture below courtesy of Jamie Lee Events.
Alright, I am off to Florida. I hope I don't get sun-burnt. I hope that I get to see Minnie! Have a safe, healthy week!
Monday, January 10, 2011
Waffle Fries. A confession. A promise. A Plan.
Waffle Fries
If you know anything about me you know that I prefer savory over sweet. I would much rather eat french fries and potato chips with dip than something sweet most anyday.
So, last night I went to Granite City with two of my girlfriends. GC is known for their waffle fries and seasoned sour cream and for very generous portions. This my friend's is a dieters worst nightmare come true. All day I was dreading going to GC because I have NEVER successfully gone there without indulging in waffle fry deliciousness. I mean if I am going to be totally honest I once split an appetizer with my friends that was Idaho Nachos which are waffle fries covered in cheese, bacon and sour cream and then I ordered a sandwich with waffle fries. Seems pretty reasonable. Ha.
My sandwich would usually be a Crispy fried Buffalo chicken wrap that I would then dip into blue cheese.
So, what is the message here? Did I eat all of these things and this is a confession rather than an example of learning from the past rather than falling into my comfortable, delicious, savory, salty past? What do you think? Did I eat it?
NO! Was it easy to not eat it? No. Do I want it to be easy and somehow become unappealing to me like fish or anchovies or sauerkraut? Yes. Is there a message in this post besides the fact that I didn't eat the above things and rather I ate the grilled mediterranean chicken with steamed broccoli? Yes. The message is below and it is one that took me awhile to deal with and to admit to myself and to all of you.
The Confession
The real point of this post is to be honest with all of you and honest with myself. Since Christmas, which was now almost 3 weeks ago I have not been walking the walk with this weight loss thing. I have been doing really well during the day and not so great when I get home. Some nights I have made dinners of tacos and spaghetti throwing portion control out the window. Some days I ate smaller portions, but the choices were poor. Some days were an off day that turned into an off weekend. I am being fully and completely honest with all of you and with myself because that is the only way for me to learn from my mistake and to get back on track.
The best part of this is that I learned my lesson before I gained all of the weight I lost back and more. I put on my jeans that just fit before Christmas yesterday and they were SNUG. I said, hmmm looks like the poor choices of caught up with me and that I need to get fully back on track. Rather than grabbing a pair of sweatpants or a bigger pair of jeans I made the decision then and there that I am NOT going back to the place that I once was. I am only going in the right direction. The weight loss, pants fit, feel better about myself, don't feel guilty when people ask me how things are going, saying every other day is a cheat day direction.
So, what is the damage and what is my plan of attack? Well. I have gained 4.5 pounds since Dec 21st. Yikes! This makes me so mad, sad, angry, disappointed and confused. How did I let this happen? I mean I know how it happened, but what was the trigger and why did it take ahold of me off and on for the better part of 3 weeks!?!
I spent a lot of time last night writing down my feelings and emotions during this time period so that I know for sure what kind of things played into my decisions. It isn't enough for me to get back on track. I need to know what happened that lead to the decisions that I made. Some of the emotions were: overwhelmed, busy, anxious, scared, sad, defeated, ashamed, guilty and disgusted. I wrote down some of the personal struggles that I have had during this as well so that I know some of the things that trigger me to eat or to make poor choices. This exercise helped me a lot. For a long time I never thought I was an emotional eater at all. I thought, I just really like food, but I don't eat because I am sad. I know now that is false. I know that my emotions tend to get the best of me and without knowing it I reach for a bag of chips. I think I have made some great progress. I think I am better prepared to get back on track and to tackle this weight loss thing again.
I hope you all see that everyone makes mistakes. I was on a HUGE roll with this weight loss thing and it started to crumble before my eyes. I hadn't have a bad day on this journey for 3 months. I had been a working out, portion control, eating healthy machine. The well-oiled machine that I created defaulted and I know that I am the only person in control of that. I had lost almost 50 pounds and just as I was starting to revel in that success, I turned my direction. I know that my emotions and my busy life got in the way of my weight loss and in the way of my continued success. I believe know that I know what I need to do and the things that I need to avoid or learn to deal with in a different way.
The Promise
I promise to myself that I will not let something like this go on for as long as it did next time. I promise that I have learned from this mistake and will be better off in the long run having gone through this. I promise to always admit when I have screwed up and to not feel like I need to be perfect all the time. I promise that I will show myself, my family, my friends and all of you that I can lose this weight and that I am a good example of someone who will overcome the odds and accomplish what they set out to do.
The Plan
1. Blog more often
2. Post more pictures
3. Be honest about every success and every failure
4. Post workout pictures
5. Post progress photos
6. Post recipes and food that I have tried
7. Work with a personal trainer again
8. Meet with my dietician to get a new plan in order
9. Talk about my emotions and my feelings
10. Lose the weight. For Good.
If you know anything about me you know that I prefer savory over sweet. I would much rather eat french fries and potato chips with dip than something sweet most anyday.
So, last night I went to Granite City with two of my girlfriends. GC is known for their waffle fries and seasoned sour cream and for very generous portions. This my friend's is a dieters worst nightmare come true. All day I was dreading going to GC because I have NEVER successfully gone there without indulging in waffle fry deliciousness. I mean if I am going to be totally honest I once split an appetizer with my friends that was Idaho Nachos which are waffle fries covered in cheese, bacon and sour cream and then I ordered a sandwich with waffle fries. Seems pretty reasonable. Ha.
My sandwich would usually be a Crispy fried Buffalo chicken wrap that I would then dip into blue cheese.
So, what is the message here? Did I eat all of these things and this is a confession rather than an example of learning from the past rather than falling into my comfortable, delicious, savory, salty past? What do you think? Did I eat it?
NO! Was it easy to not eat it? No. Do I want it to be easy and somehow become unappealing to me like fish or anchovies or sauerkraut? Yes. Is there a message in this post besides the fact that I didn't eat the above things and rather I ate the grilled mediterranean chicken with steamed broccoli? Yes. The message is below and it is one that took me awhile to deal with and to admit to myself and to all of you.
The Confession
The real point of this post is to be honest with all of you and honest with myself. Since Christmas, which was now almost 3 weeks ago I have not been walking the walk with this weight loss thing. I have been doing really well during the day and not so great when I get home. Some nights I have made dinners of tacos and spaghetti throwing portion control out the window. Some days I ate smaller portions, but the choices were poor. Some days were an off day that turned into an off weekend. I am being fully and completely honest with all of you and with myself because that is the only way for me to learn from my mistake and to get back on track.
The best part of this is that I learned my lesson before I gained all of the weight I lost back and more. I put on my jeans that just fit before Christmas yesterday and they were SNUG. I said, hmmm looks like the poor choices of caught up with me and that I need to get fully back on track. Rather than grabbing a pair of sweatpants or a bigger pair of jeans I made the decision then and there that I am NOT going back to the place that I once was. I am only going in the right direction. The weight loss, pants fit, feel better about myself, don't feel guilty when people ask me how things are going, saying every other day is a cheat day direction.
So, what is the damage and what is my plan of attack? Well. I have gained 4.5 pounds since Dec 21st. Yikes! This makes me so mad, sad, angry, disappointed and confused. How did I let this happen? I mean I know how it happened, but what was the trigger and why did it take ahold of me off and on for the better part of 3 weeks!?!
I spent a lot of time last night writing down my feelings and emotions during this time period so that I know for sure what kind of things played into my decisions. It isn't enough for me to get back on track. I need to know what happened that lead to the decisions that I made. Some of the emotions were: overwhelmed, busy, anxious, scared, sad, defeated, ashamed, guilty and disgusted. I wrote down some of the personal struggles that I have had during this as well so that I know some of the things that trigger me to eat or to make poor choices. This exercise helped me a lot. For a long time I never thought I was an emotional eater at all. I thought, I just really like food, but I don't eat because I am sad. I know now that is false. I know that my emotions tend to get the best of me and without knowing it I reach for a bag of chips. I think I have made some great progress. I think I am better prepared to get back on track and to tackle this weight loss thing again.
I hope you all see that everyone makes mistakes. I was on a HUGE roll with this weight loss thing and it started to crumble before my eyes. I hadn't have a bad day on this journey for 3 months. I had been a working out, portion control, eating healthy machine. The well-oiled machine that I created defaulted and I know that I am the only person in control of that. I had lost almost 50 pounds and just as I was starting to revel in that success, I turned my direction. I know that my emotions and my busy life got in the way of my weight loss and in the way of my continued success. I believe know that I know what I need to do and the things that I need to avoid or learn to deal with in a different way.
The Promise
I promise to myself that I will not let something like this go on for as long as it did next time. I promise that I have learned from this mistake and will be better off in the long run having gone through this. I promise to always admit when I have screwed up and to not feel like I need to be perfect all the time. I promise that I will show myself, my family, my friends and all of you that I can lose this weight and that I am a good example of someone who will overcome the odds and accomplish what they set out to do.
The Plan
1. Blog more often
2. Post more pictures
3. Be honest about every success and every failure
4. Post workout pictures
5. Post progress photos
6. Post recipes and food that I have tried
7. Work with a personal trainer again
8. Meet with my dietician to get a new plan in order
9. Talk about my emotions and my feelings
10. Lose the weight. For Good.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Saturday Session is once again tardy
So my two goals from last week were pretty simple. They were...
1. Stay on track, keep my eye on the prize.
I did a decent enough job with this one. I didn't see a gain this week, but I also didn't see a loss. I maintained, which is okay with me for this week because I already told all of you that I ate more than usual and had a few glasses of wine. I didn't really track this last week, which was probably why I didn't see the big deal in eating just one small oreo truffle. I am going to carry over the tracking piece into next week's SS because I think I have somehow told myself that I can do this without tracking and I think that is a mistake.
2. Relax.
I actually did pretty well with this one. I know some of you may be thinking, how hard can it be to just relax? Well for me it can be a big problem. I tend to over-plan and over-think everything and then I just stress myself out. I can honestly say that this is one of the first holiday's in awhile that I have just enjoyed and not thought about making everything perfect.
New Goals...
1. Track my food all week.
This means every morsel. I want to get back on the tracking wagon because I really, really think that it helps me and I know that I eat more than I should when I am not diligent about writing everything that I eat down. So, having said that I am going to be a tracking machine this week and see if my weigh-in proves that this method is indeed neccesary for me.
2. Set some major goals and challenges for the New Year.
This upcoming SS happens to land on the first day of the New Year, so to kick off the New Year with a big bang I am going to reveal my major goals for the year, some challenges that I am kind of afraid of, but willing to tackle and some of my hopes and aspirations for this journey in the new year. I hope you all will take some time to reflect on your journey so far and take some notes on where you would like to be in the New Year. Let's make 2011 healthier and happier than ever!! :)
Posts that are yet to come this week include: the Hate-Loss challenge, a fashion related post, a post about the website Etsy, a review of the game Just Dance 2 for the Wii and a new SS post! Make it a great week everyone!
Sunday, December 26, 2010
6 Things Sunday
1. I hope everyone had a happy holiday!
2. I did pretty good with my eating this week. I did have some of my mom's famous caramel rolls that I only get once a year and a few glasses of wine. I didn't veer too off course, but I did allow myself to enjoy some things that only come once a year. Was I as good as I have been? NO! Was I completely out of control? No. I just need to be honest with all of you and myself that I enjoyed my holiday without stuffing myself to the gills or depriving myself. I was somewhere in the middle. Usually I am bloated and want to puke I am so full, so I thought I did well.
3. I got a Wii Fit and Just Dance for Christmas!! So excited to start using them soon!
4. I'm going to Disney World!!! My future in-laws are taking all of us to Disney World in March. I have been there before, but not since I was 8, so I am excited to go again!!
5. I just went to Target and Pier 1 and got $300 worth of stuff for about $100. Success.
6. I am so, so, so excited to get completely back on track, into a groove, don't have parties to go to, cookies to bake, dinners to eat, drinks to sip... you get it. I love the holiday's but I have had my fill and now I am ready to make the rest of 2010 and the New Year a huge weight loss, healthy living, feel amazing about my body year :)
2. I did pretty good with my eating this week. I did have some of my mom's famous caramel rolls that I only get once a year and a few glasses of wine. I didn't veer too off course, but I did allow myself to enjoy some things that only come once a year. Was I as good as I have been? NO! Was I completely out of control? No. I just need to be honest with all of you and myself that I enjoyed my holiday without stuffing myself to the gills or depriving myself. I was somewhere in the middle. Usually I am bloated and want to puke I am so full, so I thought I did well.
3. I got a Wii Fit and Just Dance for Christmas!! So excited to start using them soon!
4. I'm going to Disney World!!! My future in-laws are taking all of us to Disney World in March. I have been there before, but not since I was 8, so I am excited to go again!!
5. I just went to Target and Pier 1 and got $300 worth of stuff for about $100. Success.
6. I am so, so, so excited to get completely back on track, into a groove, don't have parties to go to, cookies to bake, dinners to eat, drinks to sip... you get it. I love the holiday's but I have had my fill and now I am ready to make the rest of 2010 and the New Year a huge weight loss, healthy living, feel amazing about my body year :)
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