I was in a bad mood the last couple of days. Some things happened over the last couple of days that left a sour taste in my mouth. I have been working through it and trying to move on, but it was bringing me down. So, I decided last night that I was going to "work out" my issues. I hit the gym and had a nice work out and then I came home and worked in my yard/garage for 2 hours. I was sweaty and dirty and gross when all was said and done I honestly felt better.
I haven't had a lot to say the past couple of days, because they probably wouldn't be very optimistic, but I decided that I was wasting my time worrying about it and that I needed to just let it go, so I have. I am moving forward past this issue and hoping that it doesn't come up again.
I have a weekend filled with no major plans and a lot of little things to check off of my to-do list. I have some exciting posts coming up and I am working on all of them. That is all I have for now. Short and sweet. It is raining here right now and I think rain makes me sleepy and quiet.
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Saturday, December 11, 2010
Saturday Session
I am writing to you from a place that just got 18 inches of snow dumped on it. A place that is known to be frigid and snowy. A place that is very close to Canada, but today feels like it is bordering the North Pole or Antarctica. I have lived here my entire life. I love it here. There is nowhere else I would rather be (except Italy <3) I love having four full seasons to enjoy. I am someone who hates weather when it is super hot and muggy. I like being bundled up in the cold weather. I am someone who strongly believes that you are only allowed to complain about one season. You either like the heat or you like it when it is cooler. I must say, I prefer a cool crisp autumn day to most any other day. As I said before (and I promise this will be the last time) I hate being hot! So if one must choose between being hot or cold I choose to be cold. Having said that, this next statement is going to contradict everything that I just said, but here it goes... I HATE this bitterly cold, blizzard filled, snowed in day I wish that the blizzard didn't come today and ruin my three very fun plans that I had this weekend.
Okay, I feel much better and more prepared to move on with what this post is actually supposed to be about, which is not complaining about the weather (but seriously if you looked outside and what you were feasting your eyes on had ruined your wonderful and fabulous weekend filled with family, friends and cookie baking you may be upset too). Just sayin'.
Last time I had a Saturday Session post it was about the topics listed below.
Last time I had a Saturday Session post it was about the topics listed below.
1. Attend an hour long fitness class 6 days this week.
I made these goals the Saturday after Thanksgiving and I actually rocked at this the entire next week. After that I got engaged, had an interview and got stuck in a blizzard. All excuses? You betcha. Do I need to work harder at this? Definitely. This week working out was not high on my priority list. I am not even going to try and make more excuses than the ones that were previously listed. I disappointed myself and I need to do better, so this will be another goal for me for two straight weeks, with an added twist. I must attend will attend an hour long workout class 6 days a week for two consecutive weeks and I will also take a Spin class and the Mixx at least once each. Why is this a big deal? Because I have made plans to go to these classes at least 5 times before and when I get there I see very fit skinny people who look extremely coordinated and more capable of completing this class than me and I run away to my comfortable elliptical and watch music videos of fit celebrities and kick myself for being such a baby. That may have been the longest run-on sentence.
2. Get all of my holiday decorations out and Christmas presents wrapped.
I realize now that I am looking at this goal that this may have been me taking the easy way out and posting something that brings me immense joy and not really something that is a goal that I was working towards. However, I was very successful with this goal and my house is beautifully decorated and lovely.
My festive wine rack withe the stockings hung.
Ron carefully decorating the tree.
Our tree!
New goals...
1. Attend a one hour workout class 12 times in the next 14 days. Also attend a Spin class and the MIXX at least once.
This scares me. I hope I can succeed at this. I will feel amazing if I am able to accomplish this.
2. Get back on track.
What I mean by this is I kind of stopped tracking my food. I did alright most days, but then one day I ate two handfuls of M&M's. It was a slippery slope and I am not falling for it anymore. Tracking every day is essential for me and is something that I need to get back into.
I will post blizzard pictures tomorrow after we reconcile from our fight. Have a great evening everyone. Hope you're staying on track with all of the holiday temptations. It is hard, but it will be worth it when we are well ahead of the game when everyone just begins to make their new year's resolutions. :)
Friday, December 10, 2010
Choking Down My Lunch
I have to admit that I am ecstatic that it is Friday today for many reasons...
1. It is payday for my fiance, which means that we get to get some groceries. I had to choke my lunch down today because my baked chips were stale, my carrots were turning white and my sandwich is the same thing I have been eating for 2 weeks. I am so bored with my lunches and so excited to get to the store and stock up on some new goodies.
2. It is the weekend and I have a jam-packed schedule of holiday parties and fun and I ready to kick the food and treat table out the window. Tonight I have a happy hour with friends, tomorrow my fiance's family Christmas party and Sunday cookie baking with my future mother-in-law. We are supposed to get a blizzard in the middle of all of this, so we will see how much of this we are actually able to accomplish.
3. I went to the gym this morning for my first morning work-out session in almost 3 weeks and when I walked in the room someone in the class said, "i'm happy you're back. I thought you fell off the wagon." AHHHH. I love it and hate it at the same time. I love that she said that to me because in all honesty I needed to hear it. I also love that she said it because I then pushed myself harder than ever and burned even more calories. I hate it because it is so blunt and so unlike something I could say, but all of the previous statements out-weigh the negative one. The person who said it meant well with it, so I know it wasn't someone trying to be judgemental and rude.
My last thing that I listed makes me think about some people's blogs. I know that everyone's blog is as different as their journey's and I want to make a statement and try to not pass judgement while doing so. My intent with my statement is the same as the person who told me the information from #3 above. So, here it goes...
Stop making excuses and stop being overly negative! Make a promise and keep it! It drives me nuts that some people post everyday that they made a poor choice and vow that they will start to make better decisions only to post the next day that they did the same thing again and again and again.
Of course, we need to be supportive of one another. That is why most people blog, to express their feelings and to find other people who have been there or are currently in the same spot tohelp them with their struggles. I love that about the blog world. I have found so much inspiration and motivation since I started blogging. I am forever thankful for the words that people have shared with me.
I just think we also need to push each other a little. We need to approach constructive criticsm delicately and make sure that we are coming from a helpful positive place when we make a comment. We also need to make sure that people know that we are rooting for them and want them to make positive choices and not negative ones. To dwell on success, rather than failure.
Do me a favor. Look at your past 10 posts and just ask yourself what is the tone of my blog? Do I make promises to myself and break them over and over again? Do I sound like a broken record? Am I being overly negative and too hard on myself? We all need to work on finding a balance of positivity and motivation. We need to be our own biggest cheerleader and at times our toughest critic.
1. It is payday for my fiance, which means that we get to get some groceries. I had to choke my lunch down today because my baked chips were stale, my carrots were turning white and my sandwich is the same thing I have been eating for 2 weeks. I am so bored with my lunches and so excited to get to the store and stock up on some new goodies.
2. It is the weekend and I have a jam-packed schedule of holiday parties and fun and I ready to kick the food and treat table out the window. Tonight I have a happy hour with friends, tomorrow my fiance's family Christmas party and Sunday cookie baking with my future mother-in-law. We are supposed to get a blizzard in the middle of all of this, so we will see how much of this we are actually able to accomplish.
3. I went to the gym this morning for my first morning work-out session in almost 3 weeks and when I walked in the room someone in the class said, "i'm happy you're back. I thought you fell off the wagon." AHHHH. I love it and hate it at the same time. I love that she said that to me because in all honesty I needed to hear it. I also love that she said it because I then pushed myself harder than ever and burned even more calories. I hate it because it is so blunt and so unlike something I could say, but all of the previous statements out-weigh the negative one. The person who said it meant well with it, so I know it wasn't someone trying to be judgemental and rude.
My last thing that I listed makes me think about some people's blogs. I know that everyone's blog is as different as their journey's and I want to make a statement and try to not pass judgement while doing so. My intent with my statement is the same as the person who told me the information from #3 above. So, here it goes...
Stop making excuses and stop being overly negative! Make a promise and keep it! It drives me nuts that some people post everyday that they made a poor choice and vow that they will start to make better decisions only to post the next day that they did the same thing again and again and again.
Of course, we need to be supportive of one another. That is why most people blog, to express their feelings and to find other people who have been there or are currently in the same spot tohelp them with their struggles. I love that about the blog world. I have found so much inspiration and motivation since I started blogging. I am forever thankful for the words that people have shared with me.
I just think we also need to push each other a little. We need to approach constructive criticsm delicately and make sure that we are coming from a helpful positive place when we make a comment. We also need to make sure that people know that we are rooting for them and want them to make positive choices and not negative ones. To dwell on success, rather than failure.
Do me a favor. Look at your past 10 posts and just ask yourself what is the tone of my blog? Do I make promises to myself and break them over and over again? Do I sound like a broken record? Am I being overly negative and too hard on myself? We all need to work on finding a balance of positivity and motivation. We need to be our own biggest cheerleader and at times our toughest critic.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Talkative Tuesday
I have to admit. I am on a bit of a gym slump. I haven't gone in two days. I know I need to, I want to, but I just can't face the cold weather.
It has been freezing here. When I get home from work I want to crawl in bed or a hot tub. My motivation to workout hasn't been there. It needs to be. I am forcing myself to work out tonight. I know I will feel great when I am done and that is what I keep telling myself.
I just cleaned the kitchen and made dinner. I am now going to lace up my shoes and get my butt to the gym. I will work out for an hour and then I will come home and clean up the dining room. Somewhere in between all of this I am hoping that I find my friend motivation and that he hope back into my life and keeps me running because right now I am kind of running on empty.
I am also in a bit of a cooking rut. Every night it feels like it is the same thing. I need to look at my HG cookbook and find some new recipes to try. I need to spice up my life otherwise I get crazy cravings and know that I will derail.
What should I buy at the store? Any new things that I should know about?
It has been freezing here. When I get home from work I want to crawl in bed or a hot tub. My motivation to workout hasn't been there. It needs to be. I am forcing myself to work out tonight. I know I will feel great when I am done and that is what I keep telling myself.
I just cleaned the kitchen and made dinner. I am now going to lace up my shoes and get my butt to the gym. I will work out for an hour and then I will come home and clean up the dining room. Somewhere in between all of this I am hoping that I find my friend motivation and that he hope back into my life and keeps me running because right now I am kind of running on empty.
I am also in a bit of a cooking rut. Every night it feels like it is the same thing. I need to look at my HG cookbook and find some new recipes to try. I need to spice up my life otherwise I get crazy cravings and know that I will derail.
What should I buy at the store? Any new things that I should know about?
Sunday, November 21, 2010
My inner thoughts on blast
Happy Sunday! Tomorrow it is back to work. I am actually excited about this. Which is weird, I love the weekend, but I only have to work 1.5 days this week and then I am off for the rest of the week for Thanksgiving. I love Thanksgiving and I love hosting and planning holiday events and this year my Mom and I are hosting Thanksgiving at her house. My mother is a fabulous cook and baker and a great hostess and party planner. I would like to think that I inherited these traits. I am not quite as expert as she is, but I would say that I am advanced in my party planning abilities.
I am excited and also nervous. I am anxious and relaxed. Who am I kidding? I am like a chicken with my head cut off. Not only am I planning this event with 45 people and making a pie for the first time from scratch including the crust. I am also in the middle of a lifestyle change. I am like over-analyzing, over-planning, triple checking, making a list and checking it twice. You see, in my normal environment that I am in complete control of I am great. I have gotten this healthy living, eating, breathing, sleeping and exercising thing down to a science. When I am a fish out of water? I am likely to flop around like a state fair carnival booth prize winning goldfish in a first-graders bedroom. No, I won't be. I CAN'T be out of control. I am in control of myself, my actions, my body. BLAH. If I have lost some of you with this tirade I don't blame you at all. In fact if you are off reading another blog that is not nearly so full of anxiety I also don't blame you.
I just spent $106.77 at the grocery store buying groceries for the next two weeks of my life including the pecan pie and sweet potatoes that I am making. I bought a lot of amazing new products that I am dying to try and some tried and true items that I can't live without (see tomorrow's post on Must-have items). I just spent the better part of an hour washing, cutting and bagging up my food for the week and making pile in the fridge of items for work for Monday and Tuesday and a pile of stuff to take to my Mom's with me. I have planned every meal, I have planned every work out. This may seem crazy, but for me it has to be this way right now. I can't allow myself to just go home, where it is comfortable and my mom makes homemade deliciousness out of the oven all day and there is no gym membership and think that my new jeans that I can now buckle and wear without turning blue in the face from cutting off my circulation will fit. You see, I have done great so far. I am 45 pounds down since October 2nd and I am proud of it. I have lost weight in places that I didn't think was possible. I have tried classes that I swore were too hard for me. I have gone to happy hour and ordered nothing deep fried and had a water. I have not had a drop of alcohol or soda for 7 weeks. My body is sharp, cleansed, getting healthy and getting fit. I have come too far to go back. I have seen some small successes and dreamt of greater ones. I have lost 45 pounds and I will not gain one pound back. Not this holiday or the next. I am in control and I make my own decisions. I will eat in moderation, I will not go back for seconds and I will stay on track and make it to the end of this journey. I am not a fish out of water. I am Nemo finding my own way in a sometimes scary and unpredictable world.
I am excited and also nervous. I am anxious and relaxed. Who am I kidding? I am like a chicken with my head cut off. Not only am I planning this event with 45 people and making a pie for the first time from scratch including the crust. I am also in the middle of a lifestyle change. I am like over-analyzing, over-planning, triple checking, making a list and checking it twice. You see, in my normal environment that I am in complete control of I am great. I have gotten this healthy living, eating, breathing, sleeping and exercising thing down to a science. When I am a fish out of water? I am likely to flop around like a state fair carnival booth prize winning goldfish in a first-graders bedroom. No, I won't be. I CAN'T be out of control. I am in control of myself, my actions, my body. BLAH. If I have lost some of you with this tirade I don't blame you at all. In fact if you are off reading another blog that is not nearly so full of anxiety I also don't blame you.
I just spent $106.77 at the grocery store buying groceries for the next two weeks of my life including the pecan pie and sweet potatoes that I am making. I bought a lot of amazing new products that I am dying to try and some tried and true items that I can't live without (see tomorrow's post on Must-have items). I just spent the better part of an hour washing, cutting and bagging up my food for the week and making pile in the fridge of items for work for Monday and Tuesday and a pile of stuff to take to my Mom's with me. I have planned every meal, I have planned every work out. This may seem crazy, but for me it has to be this way right now. I can't allow myself to just go home, where it is comfortable and my mom makes homemade deliciousness out of the oven all day and there is no gym membership and think that my new jeans that I can now buckle and wear without turning blue in the face from cutting off my circulation will fit. You see, I have done great so far. I am 45 pounds down since October 2nd and I am proud of it. I have lost weight in places that I didn't think was possible. I have tried classes that I swore were too hard for me. I have gone to happy hour and ordered nothing deep fried and had a water. I have not had a drop of alcohol or soda for 7 weeks. My body is sharp, cleansed, getting healthy and getting fit. I have come too far to go back. I have seen some small successes and dreamt of greater ones. I have lost 45 pounds and I will not gain one pound back. Not this holiday or the next. I am in control and I make my own decisions. I will eat in moderation, I will not go back for seconds and I will stay on track and make it to the end of this journey. I am not a fish out of water. I am Nemo finding my own way in a sometimes scary and unpredictable world.
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