Last night I went with friends to a Twins game and it was wonderful! It was a cooler night and slightly overcast, but it wasn't blazing hot and it didn't rain, so I can't complain. A group of us from work go to a Twins game every year and it is a lot of fun. I was bummed that Ron couldn't go this year because he had school, but I took one of my best friends Kelsey who is also one of my maids of honor.
We always go to the Imperial Room downtown beforehand because they have a FREE mashed potato bar, amazing buffalo chicken strips with homemade blue cheese and cheap drinks for happy hour. I am proud to say that I looked all of these temptation's in the eye and went a completely different and healthier direction. I had a water and half of a quesadilla with half the amount of cheese. It was really good and in all honesty I was so busy being social that I didn't even miss the food or alcohol.
When we got to the stadium I was once again tempted by delicious warm french fries, ice cream helmets filled with crunchy and sweet toppings, hot dogs, snow cones, peanuts... okay you get it. I could go on forever. I literally stood 100 feet away from my friends who were in line and faced the field and not the concession stands because I knew that right now that was my only choice. I am not going to sit here and pretend like my will-power is iron clad. It is far from it.
I was able to fight temptation the entire game despite everyone around me indulging in ballpark goodies. It felt really good. It is a small step in a long journey, but it is one that will help me build up my strength and willpower.
I have to stop and tell myself that a moment happiness now is not worth sacrificing a lifetime of happiness in the future.
All too often I have fallen into the category of, "it is just one ice cream cone, it is only one thing of french fries." Or else I will say to myself, "I can always start this tomorrow or on Mondy." The classic line lie that I tell myself is, "This will be so much easier when this event is over, or when we're done moving, or when we don't have so many parties to go to." Blah. Excuses make me sick. I am sick of my excuses and I am really sick of being fat. I know that losing weight is never wasy. I know that there isn't a better time than now. I know that I am in control of myself and my actions and what I put in my mouth. I know if I don't lose this weight now I may never do it because life will get more difficult and I will get more discouraged with each pound I gain. So the time is now. There is no better time than the present and I am taking control of my life and my eating habits. I have the willpower to say no and the power to win this battle once and for all.
