I Wish...

I wish I wouldn't have let a month go by without telling you all why I was not here.


I wish that I didn't let what happen upset me as much as it did.


I wish that I felt the same way about blogging as I did over a year ago.


I wish that the person who sent me several awful emails would have thought things through before sending them.


I wish I would have just brushed it off and not let it consume me.


I wish these things, but the truth is that wishing is not enough.




About a month ago I got the first of three emails from a reader who was not happy with my comments on this blog.  This person was very upset that I didn't outline everything that I ate every day, pictures of my scale every week and that I didn't ask my readers more about how their journey's were going.


That was the first email.  The second and third emails were ten times worse and honestly, I am not even going to validate the person by explaining it all here, but let's just say that I had to seek the advice of an attorney to figure out what to do next.


I don't want to dwell too much on what happened or the very ridiculous allegations and assumptions that this person was making, because they are unfounded and absurd.  I will say that I am sorry for my absence, that I appreciate those of you who have followed me and offered me support over the past year and a half and that I wish you all continued success and I hope that you all reach your goal(s), whatever they may be.  I think the majority of the people in this blogging community are amazing, inspiring and motivating people and I continue to motivate myself through all of your stories.  For now, I am going to take this blogging thing one day at a time.  I needed to break the silence, since I have gotten a few, "what happened to you!?" emails and I realized that is was rude of me to fall of the face of the earth.


I am not done with my journey or with blogging, but I am taking time to rethink my presence in the blogging community and trying to determine if my words are better suited in a journal rather than in a public forum.  I am still struggling with that notion and I don't expect to have all of the answers right away.  I hope you all understand where I am coming from and realize that we all have to make our own personal decisions based upon what we feel is right for ourselves.  Thanks again for the love and support you have given me all of this time and I hope to be back in some capacity that suits my personal journey.